Oct 28, 2005


eViL & cHeeKy

Oct 27, 2005


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Same ol, same ol

Had a very interesting day today...Finally I have moved out from Cyberjaya to TTDI. All this while, i've studied in cyber and worked my arse off in cyber too..minus my stint in Shah Alam for 2 month and Bukit Bintang or 10 month...but that's gonna be another blog entry on its own..very long story..Though i'm suppposed to be based in cyber..but i'll be usually seen in TTDI office since all of my team members are located there...It's quite tiring to running around from 2 offices plus partners and customers sites..sigh..
My new workstation is quite big with a freakin view..an old rusting building and an under construction condos..Well, at least i got a view.. Yes dear...i know u got ur friggin own room..whooopie..i hated rooms anyway...too quite. You tend to doze off and day dream in a big old boring room..since mine is in a secluded corner..I'd be able to chat more without getting caught...finally...
Today, i made a very difficult call to a business partner..it was tough..i had postponed it for almost 3 month with hope nobody had noticed something is wrong with the invoices..but in the end..its gonna bite you back..crap..i picked up the phone..dialled his number..just after drafting an email to notify the screw up..hehehe..too scared to talk to the guy..so i thought i can hide behind an email address..Anyway..told him the situation..I said sorry though it was not my fault..somebody has to take the blame damn it..and he said ok..Shit....that was easy!! Probably Ramadhan month...but my point was..Why did i tried to tai chi my way out all this while. I would be able to have a piece of mind 3 month ago. That's 3 month that i will not get back. So, no more procastination to resolve problem..hopefully..But i really hate fire fighting with internal department..they can be very very annoying..much more annoying than my most difficult customer..why lah? Can't we just get along..make love not war.
Called up Hakim, an old friend during my A-Level days..he already setup a company secretary firm. Guess most of my friend already have their own business...and where i am right now..slogging my butt off..day in day out..still stuck in the rat race...Ok no more whining about work..its pretty pathetic in a corny way.
Buka puasa in Regent Hotel...this would be the last buka puasa in a hotel for this yr...Finally...already sicked and bored with hotel food. I'd rather buy 'em in pasar ramadhan and in my own place..Now i know what my economic lecturer meant about the Law of Diminishing Return...refer to John Sloman book on Macro Economics...hahaha..the 3 inch book good as a sleeping pill..very effective one.. till another lesson on life..

Oct 24, 2005

busy sangat busy

Takziah buat Pak Lah sekeluarga. Semoga roh Allahyarhamah dicucuri rahmat. AlFatihah.

:: went to seri perdana last thursday. ramai sangat org...we were stuck at their car porch when suddenly my friend felt dizzy and nearly fainted. harus la patah balik kan. rasa nyer ader a few yg hampir pengsan jugak.

:: busy sangat....sangat busy...takde masa nak buat long entry. watch 1st episod of casa impian season 6...ayorks....i hate evrything except the flower arrangement. i never like flower arrangement in my house tetiba terasa mcm berminat pulak. hmm....paying a visit to my mum's fav florist in front of kamdar alor setar sounds great huh dear???!!

:: my new colleague arrive last week. thank god i still got the room to myself...maybe becoz 1) he is taking over mr A's duties so might as well take over his desk and pc at the other room. 2) when he came in, i was at a 9 - 2 pm meeting and i lock my door...ahahahahha...hey...i dunno he was coming on that particular day laaa

:: congrats to the guy yg menang our ps2. tak sangka boleh jual at that price. thank you for bidding (if u happen to read this lar). so skang ni satu hal nak kena deliver ke sabah plak kan. he already transfer the money plus delivery cost...so fast aarr...so hunny u better be quick.

Oct 18, 2005

Jualan Murah...mari mari mari

we are selling our PS2 at ebay. check it out and join the bidding. click here

Oct 13, 2005


:: baru nak merasa nikmat duduk dalam bilik ni sensorang...dah ader pengganti plak dah. well, not yet actually tapi dah ade nama cuma tunggu sign org atas. hmm...pls let it be a lady and pls let it be after raya

went back home during lunch break to watch my fav oprah show (erkkk....boleh gitu??) tgh syiok2 baring atas sofa tgk tv....bunyi alarm dari lift...i thot mesti lift sangkut ni ader org picit bell...so buat tak tau layan tv balik....then fire alarm plak bunyik....erk..apa hal lak ni...bukak pintu....aisey...fire alarm betol2 depan pintu umah...BINGIT!!! sambung balik tgk tv....fire alarm still bunyi sekali ngan alarm dr lift. arghhh...tak leh jadi ni (dgn perasaan yg agak cuak menggigil2)....grab my tudung....amik brooch letak dlm wallet....kuor umah try menuju ke lift (konon nak turun lift...masa tsunami quake selamber jer turun lift)...both lift ader sign fire...WHAT??!!!!! fire betol ker ni...apsal semua org relax nii!!!! apa lagi cabut ler ikut tangga dari tingkat 11 sampai G...but the thing is...why am i the only one....where's everybody??? i saw one kid tgh terjenguk2 kat koridor umah dia...and another makcik dok bersidai tgk something...duh?? sampai bawah saw two boys looking at the operating room...

me: apsal dik?
boy: lift sangkut
me: kenapa?
boy: ade budak main mercun kat tingkat 4 so lift sangkut sbb ingat kebakaran
me: owh (dalam hati - tak guna punyer budak!!!!!! takder tpt lain nak main mercun ke!!! BOD*HHHHHHHHHHHHH)

tp kelakarkan...why is everybody so relax...what if kalau betol mmg ade fire. at one time i like staying at the apartment...but most of the time....menyampah gak. ader sekali tuh....dunno sapa bodoh bangang gi bubuh kahak air lior kat button lift tingkat 13....erghh...GROSS kan!!!!! if im not mistaken, tingkat 13 takder umah...but still...yek yekkkk!!!! i need to check on my terrace application...hopefully they dont left out my name.

Any given day

I've skewed my intial plan from lesser books and more Quran during Ramadhan. Just finished the final installment of Shopaholic books..The Sister story..it seems like Sophie Kinsella need to move away from the character and storyline as it is quite predictable after the 3rd book. I'm quite annoyed with the character as she's doesn't really emphasize on the evolving character..same ol Becky...it's just irritating..Last week, while waiting for my biz partner to arrive in KLCC, i went up to Kinokuniya just to browse around some books and I stumbled upon a review of evidence presented in Da vinci Code...hehehe...i grabbed the book and went straight to the cashier and smiling my way back as if I'm the only person in the world who knew this theory..
Had the buka puasa in Shrooms..it was ok..hoping i can get oyster but instead took alot of shushi's..It seems like all major buffet provider are hiking up their prices due to fuel price..bunch of BS..To make things worst..it was Terawikh time..and 3 wannabe Idol ladies went up to the stage with their tight fitting clothes sings like it's in the pub..i was like..wtf..and here i am not going for the Terawikh...i hate break fast outside..had enough of buffets ,hotels food last, loud music and awful singing..guess they were too old to join AF or Idols
The other day, Mercy replied back with the form for volunteers job. Gosh, i'm having second thoughts to join the activities as 'm too tied up with my own work. They even invited me to come down to KLCC this week for fund raising which I declined diplomatically..giving some lame excuse..too many commitments this year..gonna join u guys next yr..hahahah..what a bull..It's been ages for me to do charity work. It was a piece of cake while i was in uni previously..but now..seems like I do not want to leave my comfort zone. Darn it man..I'll kick myself!! Wifey..already warned me..No overseas humanitarian effort..Only domestic ones..aiseyman. Thought I can hitch a free ride to Iran or Sudan and help people. Somebody told me last week, one of the volunteers was a Malaysian architect with zero knowledge on medicine, was sent to Aceh during the tsunami crisis..Now, he's spearheading the team to re-build Aceh. Now that's a contribution to humanity.. But, in the application form, there boxes to tick..Areas of expertise..hmmm..am not a doctor..not a skilled carpenter...not a emergency rescuer..crap!! I dun have basic skills for survival..All those Scout or cadet co-coriculum ( did i spell it rite) was useless...I was trained to survive in the corporate jungle..but not for this..Even my current skills in sales also useless...It's not like i'm gonna negotiate to implement enterprise resource mgt for the victims...But they do have boxes for PR, fundraising and IT..quite interesting..maybe i'll tick those..
Pakistan was ravaged by 7.6 richter scale...really shocked as if it was yesterday the tragefy in Turkey and Iran...now another one...Is it a sign? Only God knows...Al-Fatihah to all victims perished in the catastrophe.

Oct 12, 2005

2nd entry for today - takde keje ker??

Keje semua setel laaa...nope actually ade a few things that i have to wait until 2morrow morning.

Conversation 1

A: Boss, nak mintak cuti (sambil hulur borang cuti)
B: hah?? abis tuh tinggal la saya sorang2 satu minggu....takde pengganti lagi ni
A: aaaa??? satu hari jer bos...next week (sambil pikir satu minggu mana plak yg dia kena tinggai sorang ni)
B: hari apa?
A: selasa
B: kita meeting isnin kan..ok (sambil sign borang cuti)
A: cuti raya dah boleh apply ker boss?
B: tu diorang dok buat jadual cuti tuh
A: C mintak cuti 7 hari (C is my assistant...her leave approval have to thru me 1st)
B: uish..lamanya...kire 2 minggu tak masuk off
A: a'ah
B: saya pun cuti 3 hari jer...sampai raya ke lima je.....takper nanti kita tgk dulu (ni hint kat aku tak leh cuti lama ke ni)

while on my way out frm his room, i was thinking...takkan sampai kena tunggu dpt pengganti both my colleagues baru leh cuti. dolu2 masa memula re-org ok jer...ayork!!! sapa kata org gomen senang dapat cuti??? sapa kata meh sini jumpa aku!!! and sapa kata org gomen keje relax?? sapa kata meh jumpa aku gak!!! and by the way, even b4 today conversation, i already planned to take ONLY 2 DAYS OFF for hari raya.

note: org gomen disini bermaksud officer yach...kerani ke bawah tiada dalam gambaran

Telephone Conversation

X: Dear, hari ni u nak makan apa?
Y: ntah la...i dah boring la tak tau nak makan apa
X: u want me to cook??
Y: menarik gak
X: tapi nasi aaaa
Y: hah....hari ni kita try Yong Tau Foo
X: ok...u nak yong tau foo Mat Rempit ker Hikmah
Y: ntah erk...tak tau la
X: Pilih jer la mana2
Y: Hikmah laaa...but i want seafood only

ayork...sorry la YTF mat rempit...next time i buy frm u okke.

note: ingatkan nak makan roti john unan hr ni...but since hubby nak YTF...so i pun tompang sekaki yachhh!!


:: *big grin* starting today i got the room to myself...the earliest i think im getting a new roomate would be in december. I LIKE!!!!!

:: so now, 2 colleagues gone. my clerk went on maternity leave. LIFE IS SOOOO GREAT!!!!

:: smalam, ader org itu telefon tanyer pasal metrojaya preview sale (yerp!! again). im not goin coz i only got like RM** until 25th Oct *mukakuningmataterbeliakgeleng2kepala*. then org itu suruh plak tgk Sembilu - Final Episod. Kebetulan pulak smalam mmg tgk sesambil iklan di channel lain. Sembilu ni kalau tgk dia nyer script mmg lawak, si boifren cakap AKU-KAU...si gilfren plak cakap SAYA-AWAK. punyer la pelik dengar. anyway it is fendi, if only i know yg the other guy haikal tuh si mamat neon tuh berlakon....sure dah lama aku terjebak ngan sembilu ni *mukakuningkenyitmata*

:: smalam Q dekat roti john unan paling panjang...maybe sbb we all gi lambat. of course i didnt Q....belum tahap gedik lagi nak makan roti john itu. erk...azie...ko Q ker smalam?

:: biskut raya dah belli -
1. tart nenas - 2 balang - mine!!!
2. roda impian - 3 balang - 3 umah
3. chocolate rice - 3 balang - 3 umah
4. badam ceklat - 3 balang - 3 umah
5. sarang semut - 1 balang - mine!!!
6. nestum batek - 1 balang - mine!!!
7. batang buruk - 2 bungkus - mine!!!

bila total up harge *pingsan*. nasib baik dot dot dot....*mukakuningkenyitmatakatmrevil*. semua except no 1 and 7 beli ngan Kak K. agak mahal sebenarnyer tapi I LIKE!!!

Oct 10, 2005


Frankly speaking..I dun see the benefits in this..but..what the heck...

Excerpt : not a very good planning in my part.

Done...Happy? I tend to put lots of fullstop in my sentences...Guess there's no meaning in it

Now, who shall I tag?...Tuan Zahrul, if u r reading this..Now i think the appropriate time for you to reveal urself..i mean ur blog..Carpe Diem!

Van Halen - Panama

suka suki jer tagged2 ni

ayorkkk....camne leh kena tag ngan nor azfinah ishak ini plak nih

Here's what the game is like...
The Rules:
1. Go into your archive.
2. Find your 23rd post.
3. Find the fifth sentence (or closest to).
4. Post the text of the sentence in your blog along with these instructions.
5. Tag five other people to do the same.

mengira dan mengira entry yg berwarna hijau.....

30th May 2004, Sunday
Around 10.00 am
Masjid Tunku Intan Safinaz, Anak Bukit
Happy 1st Anniversary Dear

*woohoooo my 1st wedding anniversary entry*

thats why i lurve u so much darling evil!!!

ps: tapi this entry doesnt have a 5th sentence

ur turn now darling evil. remember only ur entry!!! and my tagging would be...

1. sabrina
2. iffah (erk...disqualified tak cukup 10 entry pun...hihihi)
3. tg azfa
4. ninie
5. zaza


i'm in deep sh*t!!!! one colleague has been asking for transfer since early of the year and she got it. her last day is 2morrow. good for her coz she's an engineer tp kena buat keje ptd. and another colleague got promoted...so the guy is out frm the ministry since last friday.

and just a while ago...got a stack of work frm my boss....only then i realise....me=alone=doing everything. back to square one ler nampak nyer...mcm masa memula re-org dulu *pingsan*!!!

p/s: i need clean water...i hate dirty water....they're gross....i need energy to keep me goin and communications to keep me updated.....and now i got everything *pingsan*

p/s 2: starting wednesday, this big room will belong to me....yeahh....only me!!! *evil grin*

Oct 9, 2005

Sunday, 091005

:: Thursday, 061005 after work gi PARAM kat P2. since ni 1st time so tawaf 3 kali cari nak checkout the place. jumpa gerai roti john yg sangat sedap itu terus beli. ramai mcm tahun lepas jugak. i have to wait like 20 - 30 minutes kot. takper worth waiting. bebudak alam sham memborong sekali 8 - 11 bijik...adeih!!! sapa org2 putrajaya yg nak try roti john sedap ni cari la gerai yg paling ramai org. then, cari gerai yg jual ayam/daging bakar menara pjh...takder plak....alerr tak jual ker tahun ni. so beli turkish kebab for hubby. mmg org turki yg jual. mr evil tak mo makan nasik so tambah lg 2 ketol BBQ chicken wing. then beli tauhu bakar yg end up jadi rojak tauhu. this yrnyer param..mcm tahun lepas jer....mcm boring sket takper la i just aim for my fav jer....kalau happening sgt kang confuse plak nak beli apa. i remember last yr or last 2 yrs, i went to PARAM TTDI yg dikatakan happening tuh. end up beli laksa jer sbb cannot make up my mind....ihihih. ok back to param p2, ader satu gerai tuh jual yong tau foo. dua kali round masih takde customer...kesian betol. masa tuh dah niat dah next time kalau terasa nak makan yong tau foo, i'm goin to buy frm them. tapi tu lah...yg menjual nyer two guys yg gaya tak ubah mcm mat rempit. kalau derang pakai senonoh sket takper gak. lgpun they hav big competition there, gerai YTF Hikmah yg i think dah established..yer aaa putrajaya ader...bangi ade..kire nama dah cukup gah ler tuh. 3rd round lalu baru ler gerai mat rempit tuh ader 2 customer. ok ler dr takde langsung. nak kuor dr parking param tuh ishhh dia punyer jammed punyer lah terok. tahun lepas takde plak mcm ni...ni mesti pasal kawan2 NUR IZYANI ZAKARIA dah ramai kat putrajaya ni.

:: Friday, 071005 hari ni bukak pose sensorang, b4 gi param dah plan nak beli mee hoon sup sukamari (ni sedap gak). kena plan sbb nak balik cepat takmo stuck dalam jammed lg. lepas beli mee hoon sup ngan popia basah lalu kat gerai roti john yg sgt sedap itu. aikkkk!!! dah tukor sistem...smalam sistem crash boom bang....hari ni dah sistem beratur. ayoooo....panjang plak tu Qnyer. jenuh ler lps ni kalau nak beli roti john tuh.

:: Saturday, 081005
dlm pukul 10 lebih dah kuar umah gi travel agency. settle apa2 yg patut then gi MV...sampai sana shopping sket2 kat metrojaya pehtu jalan2...lepak kat mph buat free reading. dah plan nak buka kat something2 sakura *ive been eating at this rest for few times but i just couldnt get name stuck in my head*. dlm kol 3 lebih dah boring gileer tak tau nak buat apa....so apa lagi buat keje giler gi petaling street...muakakakakak. hunny bunch shopping sakan kat situ....erk me too!! then we had our buffet ramadhan at hotel ancasa or is it micasa. yg sebelah pudu tuh. not bad....even though menu dia tak byk but i like it sbb makanan dia berasa. plus tpt tak cramped.

:: Sunday, 091005
what???!!!!! no water??!!!!! shiotttt jer. masa sahur tadi ok jer. around this time of the month plak tuh...harus pegi usj ni. by the time kitorang nak siap2 gi usj, air dah ader balik. we just stayed at home.....5 plus2 baru gerak gi param p2. yeay!!!! ayam and daging bakar menara pjh dah ader!!! LILIE...KAU HARUS BELI AYAM INI MEMANDANGKAN KO PEMINAT SETIA AYAM!!! gerai dia yg ngadap jalan yer bukan treasury. lalu depan gerai roti john UNAN yg sedap itu. still long Q. see ppl even Q panjang org ramai still sanggup beratur. sapa yg tak try lagi roti john sila lah cuba...at least sekali during this mth. i took some pictures at the stall tapi mr thinking pad tak bley detect plak my hp. duhh!!! anyway, ive uploaded some pixs kat cheeky bites. LILIE, KO HARUS TGK GAMBOR AYAM YANG MENGGHAIRAHKAN ITU.

Oct 7, 2005

The good, the bad and the fugly

The Good
- Ramadhan has arrived, so I'm determined to cleanse myself and more prayers..Must not miss Terawih this time around coz the surau is in my block..No more excuses!! Hope to read the Quran more and lesser novels..So much good things to do in Ramadhan...heck..i'm getting credited even in my sleep...what a no brainer..Thank you God!!
- Fasting month will help me slim down a bit...i hope so...wishful thinking i suppose..but i'm determined to go for it..
- After reading Steve Jobs speech , i realise i dun want to settle for second...i need to search the one thing i'll be passionate about...so while i was on my way to my car today..i bump into the blue honda accord dude again...he'll be doing the same old chores every morning...washing his car..eventhough he's not working..retired probably..no stress..no worries..but i dun want to end up like him..Waiting the day Death come knocking on the door..live your life...So i've sent a mail to an NGO for volunteer jobs...

The Bad
- 3rd Quarter just closed and entering 4th Q...so I've got like 3 days of stress-free holiday.
- We lost the WaterGames event last weekend..not a single freakin prize...we were eating dust or might i say..lake water..even the MDC girls team whoop our ass...it was so humiliating...and to top it all..we didn't have a t-shirt at all...like the rest of the competitor
- We got 2nd place in the dragonboat event...only 2 teams competing in the 2nd heat..hehehe..sort of our consolation prize
- Need to watch out my spending this month as Raya is coming...too many nephews and nieces after the merger of 2 families...In uni, i thought merger and acquisition would lead to reduction of expenditure with lay-offs and increased productivity...but I can't fire my anak buah..and i don't see any diffrence in efficiency..Probably..these are the teething problem when major companies merged...

the Fugly
- Most of the deal last quarter was not reflected in my ledger..Drouble crap!!...I want my commission damn it...Ooopss..bulan posa...have patience..cool...cool
- ceteris paribus....

Oct 6, 2005


:: hr ni extra ngantuk + penat coz pagi tadi bertungkus lumus buat keje.

:: Perbezaan WP1 and WP3

WP1 - lift kat umah berenti at almost every floor utk pick up org
WP3 - most of the time zaaasssss dr tingkat 11 terus ker G

WP1 - kena keluar dr umah at least half an hr before swipe in

WP3 - boleh keluar dr umah 15-20 mins before swipe in

WP1 - jammed giler baban - pergi dan balik
WP3 - clear giler baban - pergi jer, balik kekadang

WP1 - esp for fasting month, ramai yg nak balik on the dot 4.30
WP3 - esp for fasting month, hanya org2 spt NUR IZYANI ZAKARIA jer nak balik 5.30ptg (lps tu ngadu kena bukak pose dlm keter plak)...which is the minority.

:: smalam after work gi param kat bangi...byk lagi yg tak bukak...sajer jer gi jejauh sbb supirnya adaaa. salu org 1st day pose nak makan besor, but not for us. for myself roti john jer pehtu powww munchkin nyer peha ayam bbq. tak sedap sgt roti john but still i like it. nanti nak beli yg kat p2 sedap giler2 tp tak tau la tahun ni dia jual ker dak. munchkin plak beli roti warisan (roti inti daging balut ngan kulit popiah n goreng), kebab and bbq chicken wing. beli kuih putu bambu and tembikai setengah biji. balik umah tinggal buat air longan jer. susahhhnyerr nak buat air longan ni. utk ramadhan this yr, munchkin kata tak yah masak utk buka sbb dia tak nak makan nasi...ngeh ngeh ngeh....senang keje makcik (tapi increment utk COHA masih perlu dipertimbangkan yachs). just masak malam utk sahur jer.....lalalalalala. mlm ni ingat nak buat ayam goreng kunyit utk sahur ker nak buat ikan bilis tumis belacan and cili api. hmmmmmmmm. anyway, cheeky bites updated. kalau ader gambor yg blur2 sket tuh mintak mahap yer sbb semua amik guna tepon jer. malas nak pakai kamera...kena berwayar2 plak bila nak transfer.

Oct 4, 2005

Tuesday, 041005

:: 1st of all, i wanna welcome iffah to this blogging world. dah duduk jauh2 tuh rerajin la update blog, at least member2 kat sini terasa dekat.

:: on travelling, we havent decide where to go. nak try tgk korea or hong kong. kalau tak leh decide gak mmg karambunai ler. tp if possible mmg nak sangat gi bali (masih mode keciwa). nak SHOPPING!!!!! chech this out -->
my supposed to be shopping list. of course not all la kan...ader la a few small small items tu.

:: on bajet 2006...hmmm

~ bonus - expected. infact i was preparing for the worst which is 1/2 mth or tak dpt langsung. ok la tuh drpd takder kan
~ increment for I*KA - yg ni mmg quite shocking. tak expect langsung. takder rumours pun pasal increment ni...alhamdullillah
~ COCA COLA - TAK DAPAT!!! expected pun. dah dgr rumours psl those yg dok kuarters tak dpt. kalau ikutkan mmg la tak puas hati kan...mcm mana derang ni define COCA COLA? true cost of living termasuk house rental tp just cut jer la portion house rental tuh and increasekan la house allowance. takper lah...bukan rezeki. tanyer lid...masa time dia dulu semua org dpt...tp dolu2 COCA COLA 30 hinggit jer....govt servant pun sket jer kot.

ader yg cakap baik keluar jer dr kuarters tuh and menyewa..banyak rugi oooo. hmm...let me see...
hse allowance - 210
coca cola - 150
allowance pindah putrajaya - 150 (dibayar bila our office move to putrajaya until mac 2006 max, dpt la merasa beberapa bulan b4 dpt kuarters)
so kat sini dah rugi 510 (until Mac 2006)!!!! banyak gak kan. tp takper lah...i like it here. selesa. dekat. etc etc.

p/s: erk...govt servant dpt COLA...not-so-desperate hsewife takde increment COHA ker? ihihih...just joking dear!!!

:: smalam pilih WP baru. so start bulan pose esok masuk keje 7.30 - 4.30. mmg harus jgn tidor lepas sahur yerr!!! lps raya back to normal working hr kot...but i think i wanna change to wp2. tetiba rasa mcm lama sgt plak nak tunggu 5.30 tuh.

:: anyway, ni lah dia snow white zett...PUTERI DINI DAHLEA. comelkan....

Oct 3, 2005

bali oh bali

:: musnah harapan hancur lebur berkecai berderai. there goes my bali shopping spree. both of us already bought a package to bali end of this november. as per yesterday, we plan to just proceed with the package sbb rasa mcm ok kot. tp lepas check ngan our travel agency, it seems like everybody is cancelling their trip. my travel agent tu pun tak boleh nak bagi recomendation to proceed or not. it is for us to decide. dia cuma cakap ramai yg cancel. lepas pikir2 balik...ok lah cancel la jugak lgpun i'm sure bila gi sana nanti utk holiday sure ader rasa takut kan. bukan holiday namanyer tuh kalau dah takut2. nasib baik travel agency bagi refund...tp air ticket diapun tak sure boleh bagi 100% refund ker tak sbb tiket dah beli. we are not goin to take the refund tp just nak tukor destinations. punyer lah susah nak pikir destination kat overseas mana yg best sbb dlm kapla otak ader Bali jer so end up we might just be goin to nexus karambunai sabah. ok lah tuh (dalam nada yg masih keciwa).

:: check ngan asadi, she went bali last august. the hotel that we book sama tpt ngan dia. and dia cakap tpt bombing tuh mmg just around the corner.....mmg tpt dia jalan2 makan angin...jimbaran tu plak mmg tpt derang akan bawak kiter makan seafood. arghhhhhhhhhh...kukeciwaaaaa.

:: nak blog pasal bajet pun malas...takde mood hari ni...sob sob sob

3 short stories

I came across this blog last week and one of the entries talk about living your life...


Text of the Commencement address by Steve Jobs, CEO of Apple Computer and of Pixar Animation Studios, delivered at Stanford University on June 12, 2005.

I am honored to be with you today at your commencement from one of the finest universities in the world. I never graduated from college. Truth be told, this is the closest I've ever gotten to a college graduation. Today I want to tell you three stories from my life. That's it. No big deal. Just three stories.The first story is about connecting the dots.

I dropped out of Reed College after the first 6 months, but then stayed around as a drop-in for another 18 months or so before I really quit. So why did I drop out?

It started before I was born. My biological mother was a young, unwed college graduate student, and she decided to put me up for adoption. She felt very strongly that I should be adopted by college graduates, so everything was all set for me to be adopted at birth by a lawyer and his wife. Except that when I popped out they decided at the last minute that they really wanted a girl. So my parents, who were on a waiting list, got a call in the middle of the night asking: "We have an unexpected baby boy; do you want him?" They said: "Of course." My biological mother later found out that my mother had never graduated from college and that my father had never graduated from high school. She refused to sign the final adoption papers. She only relented a few months later when my parents promised that I would someday go to college.

And 17 years later I did go to college. But I naively chose a college that was almost as expensive as Stanford, and all of my working-class parents' savings were being spent on my college tuition. After six months, I couldn't see the value in it. I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life and no idea how college was going to help me figure it out. And here I was spending all of the money my parents had saved their entire life. So I decided to drop out and trust that it would all work out OK. It was pretty scary at the time, but looking back it was one of the best decisions I ever made. The minute I dropped out I could stop taking the required classes that didn't interest me, and begin dropping in on the ones that looked interesting.

It wasn't all romantic. I didn't have a dorm room, so I slept on the floor in friends' rooms, I returned coke bottles for the 5¢ deposits to buy food with, and I would walk the 7 miles across town every Sunday night to get one good meal a week at the Hare Krishna temple. I loved it. And much of what I stumbled into by following my curiosity and intuition turned out to be priceless later on.

Let me give you one example:
Reed College at that time offered perhaps the best calligraphy instruction in the country. Throughout the campus every poster, every label on every drawer, was beautifully hand calligraphed. Because I had dropped out and didn't have to take the normal classes, I decided to take a calligraphy class to learn how to do this. I learned about serif and san serif typefaces, about varying the amount of space between different letter combinations, about what makes great typography great. It was beautiful, historical, artistically subtle in a way that science can't capture, and I found it fascinating.

None of this had even a hope of any practical application in my life. But ten years later, when we were designing the first Macintosh computer, it all came back to me. And we designed it all into the Mac. It was the first computer with beautiful typography. If I had never dropped in on that single course in college, the Mac would have never had multiple typefaces or proportionally spaced fonts. And since Windows just copied the Mac, its likely that no personal computer would have them. If I had never dropped out, I would have never dropped in on this calligraphy class, and personal computers might not have the wonderful typography that they do. Of course it was impossible to connect the dots looking forward when I was in college. But it was very, very clear looking backwards ten years later.

Again, you can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.

My second story is about love and loss.I was lucky — I found what I loved to do early in life. Woz and I started Apple in my parents garage when I was 20. We worked hard, and in 10 years Apple had grown from just the two of us in a garage into a $2 billion company with over 4000 employees. We had just released our finest creation — the Macintosh — a year earlier, and I had just turned 30. And then I got fired. How can you get fired from a company you started? Well, as Apple grew we hired someone who I thought was very talented to run the company with me, and for the first year or so things went well. But then our visions of the future began to diverge and eventually we had a falling out. When we did, our Board of Directors sided with him. So at 30 I was out. And very publicly out. What had been the focus of my entire adult life was gone, and it was devastating.

I really didn't know what to do for a few months. I felt that I had let the previous generation of entrepreneurs down - that I had dropped the baton as it was being passed to me. I met with David Packard and Bob Noyce and tried to apologize for screwing up so badly. I was a very public failure, and I even thought about running away from the valley. But something slowly began to dawn on me — I still loved what I did. The turn of events at Apple had not changed that one bit. I had been rejected, but I was still in love. And so I decided to start over.

I didn't see it then, but it turned out that getting fired from Apple was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. The heaviness of being successful was replaced by the lightness of being a beginner again, less sure about everything. It freed me to enter one of the most creative periods of my life.

During the next five years, I started a company named NeXT, another company named Pixar, and fell in love with an amazing woman who would become my wife. Pixar went on to create the worlds first computer animated feature film, Toy Story, and is now the most successful animation studio in the world. In a remarkable turn of events, Apple bought NeXT, I retuned to Apple, and the technology we developed at NeXT is at the heart of Apple's current renaissance. And Laurene and I have a wonderful family together.

I'm pretty sure none of this would have happened if I hadn't been fired from Apple. It was awful tasting medicine, but I guess the patient needed it. Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith. I'm convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You've got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don't settle.

My third story is about death.
When I was 17, I read a quote that went something like: "If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you'll most certainly be right." It made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: "If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?" And whenever the answer has been "No" for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something.

Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important tool I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything — all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure - these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.

About a year ago I was diagnosed with cancer. I had a scan at 7:30 in the morning, and it clearly showed a tumor on my pancreas. I didn't even know what a pancreas was. The doctors told me this was almost certainly a type of cancer that is incurable, and that I should expect to live no longer than three to six months. My doctor advised me to go home and get my affairs in order, which is doctor's code for prepare to die. It means to try to tell your kids everything you thought you'd have the next 10 years to tell them in just a few months. It means to make sure everything is buttoned up so that it will be as easy as possible for your family. It means to say your goodbyes.

I lived with that diagnosis all day. Later that evening I had a biopsy, where they stuck an endoscope down my throat, through my stomach and into my intestines, put a needle into my pancreas and got a few cells from the tumor. I was sedated, but my wife, who was there, told me that when they viewed the cells under a microscope the doctors started crying because it turned out to be a very rare form of pancreatic cancer that is curable with surgery. I had the surgery and I'm fine now.

This was the closest I've been to facing death, and I hope its the closest I get for a few more decades. Having lived through it, I can now say this to you with a bit more certainty than when death was a useful but purely intellectual concept:

No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don't want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life's change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.

Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

When I was young, there was an amazing publication called The Whole Earth Catalog, which was one of the bibles of my generation. It was created by a fellow named Stewart Brand not far from here in Menlo Park, and he brought it to life with his poetic touch. This was in the late 1960's, before personal computers and desktop publishing, so it was all made with typewriters, scissors, and polaroid cameras. It was sort of like Google in paperback form, 35 years before Google came along: it was idealistic, and overflowing with neat tools and great notions.

Stewart and his team put out several issues of The Whole Earth Catalog, and then when it had run its course, they put out a final issue. It was the mid-1970s, and I was your age. On the back cover of their final issue was a photograph of an early morning country road, the kind you might find yourself hitchhiking on if you were so adventurous. Beneath it were the words: "Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish."

It was their farewell message as they signed off. Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish. And I have always wished that for myself. And now, as you graduate to begin anew, I wish that for you.Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.

-Hope all of us would be inspired by this speech one way or another-