Failure

If one go to google and typed failure then clicked on I'm feeling lucky..one will be presented with the bio of some hobo in the US acting like a moron....
But here, in the good ol Malaysia..I've failed my certification exam...and i missed it with one more freaking correct answer!!!Arghhh..it was frustating and practically waste of money..RM 285 to be exact...Damn it..Have to take another exam next month or my performance evaluation gonna be a bit ugly...

Come to think of it, this was the 2nd time in my life..i've ever failed in exam papers..the 1st one was in MMU..final yr...1st sem...Econometrics. That was an unbelievably big mistake...I didn't attend the class coz i thought it was so damn easy....it's exactly like Statistics in A-Level days...so i thought...screw the classes..i'm better off playing counter-strike than calculating the index yr of China GDP or watsoever. So, when i took the exam...i was blinking for a couple of seconds and unable to comprehend WTF are these questions all about..Ferkkkkkkkkkk...I used to sailed maths related exams....piece of cake..but that was a wake up call for me...Not to be fuc*in arrogant anymore..especially in Maths...

Talking about arrogance in maths...there was time during my A-level days..Pn Shima, our Add Math teacher was talking bout algebra to the class and the whole boys were not paying attention at all..the girls was a bit intimidated coz we boys are so good in Add Math during the SPM days...so...this is another walk in the park..we were like chatting...playing pranks in front of Pn Shima...the girls can't concentrate and a tiny bit upset..and then..Pn Shima freaked out..suddenly burst in anger and shocked the whole class...like an 8.5 Richter scale earthquake...and she just grabbed her stuff and walked out of the class....Whoaaaa..it took us quite a surprise as we never experience that before..I use to get scolded or canned or stand up on the table etc..but this was new..Pn Shima practically gave up on us...ferkkkkkk....
Then the battle betw boys and girls erupted in the class..both parties blaming each other..your stupid..no..you asshole...well..you know the drill... It prolonged to several weeks and month i guess...where the boys and girls didn't talked to each other..it was quite funny though..as we were like adult but acting like school children...
But in the end..we called it a truce...peace finally set down in the class...no more flaming..blaming..tolerance were uphold...The boys went to Pn Shima's room, and apologize to her..she said " Forgiven but not forgotten" ...we were like "huh"...

Anyway, that was like almost 10 yrs ago...most of us have grown up..be more mature..able to think rationally..to weigh the difference betw good and bad...and maybe some forgotten bout it already...and i can't solve a simple SPM Add Math questions anymore..rusty and tak berkat kot!
I guess, i did failed to be a good person...an understanding and well rounded human being..with responsibility to my friends and family...

"Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could; some blunders and absurdities have crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; you shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense. -Ralph Waldo Emerson"

no turning back....

finally today i got my connection and email add. yeah...some ppl are laughing at my @p***on.gov.my address. tak keysah la as long as i'm connected to the outside world.

hmmm....byk nak citer but dunno where to start what to start

yes? no? yes? no?

Putting on our thinking cap...

Front view

Backyard view

SYMP...

org cakap setiap apa yg berlaku ada hikmahnya. tp kalau it keep on happening...what can i do but to feel depressed. frm one thing to another thing and one thing to another thing. is it just not my year or what?? quoting an sms frm a friend "but am gonna miss u...."

*intears*

p/s: kena tukor template baru leh bukak guna IE

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Here and there

Since cheeky already blogging bout the trip..i'd rather blog on something else then...Cheeky bought a book by Sopie Kinse*la..the Undomestic God*ess.. Yeah..it's a chic lit but I've got nothing to read so managed to finished it off in 2 days...now i know why i shouldn't buy novels...i can't stop flipping the pages. While reading that book, it does struck a chord as somebody in the rat race....chasing never ending things..the unnecessary stress..and when she lost her way to surburbia somewhere in UK i guess. The slow pace of life..the fresh air..the relax attitude..the close knit community...Lucky i'm going away for a week..if not, i'll be depressed after finishing that book...bad book.

During the same time..i bought another book to...after reading Ifah's blog on the Confessio* of an Econom*c Hit*man...thx Ifah for reading that book..this book is so damn cool..this is my kind of book..conspiracy theory..and eye opener for a mere person like me...Now i know why lots of countries against globalization....the start of New world Order...the thirst of oil and the suffering of 3rd world countries..highly recommended by me...

Then i bought another one before the trip so i won't be bored in the plane. The Search by some IT writer..this is for the geeks out there. It talk more on the history of search engine and how it evolve and mold our socio-culture indirectly. It goes to certain length on how artificial intelligence will be based on search engine like google and maybe..we can just upload our memory to a central server and live forever..Matrix like universe...The word google come from googol i.e 1 to the power of 100..Those people in google are really geeks and nerds......wish i can work there..hehehe

I finished The Search in Bali, so i prowled around Legian Street for bookshop and luckily stumbled upon one...its a small setup and cozy with tonnes of dusty books..the towkey wearing a cowboy hat was a bit stingy to give me more discounts..crap...most of it are in germans and italians...then i saw the book which i remembered my cz in law was reading months ago...it was Catch 22. She's one heck of a reader i might add...probably the queen of book reading..she'll be with a book everytime we met..good books..so, if she's reading it..i can read it too..hehehe. But it is so darn confusing..its like watching the movie Snatch or Memento...so many parallel storyline and i just can't follow the pace of it...

I wish i can just retire and spent the rest of my life reading books...Just like this mat salleh lady in our hotel. Everytime we got out or came back from rigorous shopping, she'll be sitting at the balcony with stacks of book..a glass of water....i guess she bought it from the cowboy wearing towkey..You're one lucky lady....

yek yek tuiiii

pah keciwa
pah ingat abg botak nyanyi lagu we will rawks u tp
pah terperanjat tgk ace tu plak yg bawak
pah keciwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...hancor!!!!!!!!!!!!

yek yek tuiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

i have to delete my previous post on our trip. spt ader masalah ajer post itu...asyik error jer kalau nak bukak blog. i will re-post it again this weekend. anyway, this friday is gonna be my last day in the office. esok dah one whole day kena duty kat sini. so kira - kira ader one day left nak settle semua hal2 opis. sedey ker? hmm..takder perasaan pun. dunno what to expect at the new place...yg penting jgn la mimpi yg indah2.

i'm leaving the ministry at a very wrong time. tu la sapa suh extend. supposedly my transfer order is 1st april tp becoz of the long holidays, i request for postponment. with the recent aReMKay 9 announcement and our beloved PieM decision on doing a short notice visit to all the ministry, sure kelam kabut punyer. my unit is left with only 2 person. today my boss ask me to prepare a format presentation for the visit. tgh2 buat key in segala numbers tetiba terpikir, i'm gonna miss all these numbers and powerpoints format. owh!! did i tell u that besides excel, powerpoint is also my fav. i can browse the microsoft off online to get the best templates to suit my presentation tp salu tewas sbb taste kita tak sama ngan taste mereka. anyway, seriously rasa tak sedap hati nak tinggalkan office with all this kalutness. wopss...american idol dah mula...nak tgk my fav si botak.

teka teki teka tekuk

cuba teka harga painting di bawah ini...murah giler nak mampus tahap tak terkata

we bought all these in pasar sukawati.

and this one in ubud. how i wish i can buy more and more...tp nanti umah jadi art gallery plak. lepas ni nak cari kedai nak buat frame mcm painting kat 1st pix tuh.

the trip...(part 1)

tengok gambor dulu

The Departure


- masa ni kat erl...pls take note..only one bag taw

The Scenery


1st pix - kat tanah lot
2nd pix - me at kintamani, muka berkerut sbb angin kuat sangat and penjaja yg sangat desperet....sian
3rd pix - erk...dah terforget...somewhere inside their temple...cantik sangat view dlm air tuh
4th pix - mr evil @ kuta beach. just a walking distance frm our hotel
5th pix - at uluwatu cliff temple

to be continued *macam yek yek tau blogger ni punyer ler susah nak upload gambor*


~ me, azie and lilie off to I-KEA later after work. smalam dah unpack separuh barang shopping and as expected....takder tempat nak letak barang2 decor tuh. kena carik display cabinet baru ni...hik hik hik

we're back

how i spend my sunday....

i spend my whole sunday browsing the net and i'm stuck here!!!
at the end of the day: hentak paler kat bean bags!!!

the trip...

See that tall, dark and handsome bowl??? muchkin hubby insisted that i put the pix on the blog. reason: he also got good taste in ID. he bought it during his recent trip to KK. ok la dear, i have to admit that the bowl is so damn nice...but u need to improve on ur bargaining skills laarr. RM5 cut in price is not something to be proud of. anyway, more pixs can be viewed at cheeky's decor.

i'm pretty excited abt our "how-many-times-postponed-trip-to-bali" this coming tuesday. its gonna be 7N8D adventure for us. lama kan??? bought the ticket somewhere in february...u know the RM0 tickets offer...thats explain the 7D8N. we just need to pay for the tax and blah blah for RM268 per couple. got an interesting tour package frm the net. hope we can trust the guy. payment is not made yet...all transactions will be done over there. anyway, this is the itenary...em really looking forward to it.....hopefully everything went well...

Day 1 (28/03/2006), Tuesday (Arrival Approximately 7:40pm)

- Dinner at Pelengkung Restaurant (Halal)

- Check in Bali Gardenia Resort (http://www.baligardenia.com/)

Day 2 (29/03/2006), Wednesday

- Breakfast and Check out from hotel

- White water rafting (Lunch Include)

- 3 hours SPA package at Baliwis or Wisata

- Jimbaran Beach Seafood Candle Dinner (Include: 1^st beverage, prawn,fish,squid, Clam, vegetable and fruit)

- Check in at Grand Mirage Hotel (http://www.grandmirage.com/)

Guests should back to hotel before 9pm. Due to many streets will be close for the Ogo-Ogo Parade.

Day 3 (30/03/2006), Thursday

Nyepi Day. (Silent Day: start 00:00am March 29^th until 07:00am March 31^st)

NO OUTSIDE HOTEL AREA ACTIVITIES WILL BE ALLOWED.

Day 4 (31/03/2006), Friday

- Barong & Kris Baliness Classic Dance

- Ubud Traditional Market

- Tirta Empul (Holy Water Temple at Tampak Siring)

- Kintamani Volcano Panorama

- Pura Danu Batur (Holy Mountain Temple: One of Biggest Temple In Bali)

- Check in at Hotel Sunari

- 2 hours SPA (include)

Day 5 (01/04/2006), Saturday

- Dolphin Tour

- Snorkeling

- Breakfast & Check Out

- Sailing with speedboat at Bedugul (Mountain Lake)

- Tanah Lot (Holy Ocean Temple)

- Hotel Check in (Nagasari or same level at Kuta Area)

If get more energy, there is a Night Party at Bounty Pub.

Day 6 (02/04/2006), Sunday

Free & Easy ( You can visit famous Kuta Beach, Kuta Square Shopping & Discovery Mall with in walking distance)

Transportation will be standby

Day 7 (03/04/2006), Monday

- Optional Scuba Diving Lesson (Charge US$100 for 2 people. Include: PADI Instructor, Full Equipment, Boat)

- Uluwatu (Cliff Temple)

- Tea Break at Puri Bali

- Nusa Dua Beach

- Nusa Dua Shopping Centre (SOGO)

Day 8 (04/04/2006)

- ½ day free – late check out until 2pm

- Tea Break at Ritz Carlton (Include 1^st soft drink)

- Airport

Interesting huh? too bad our travelling period is during the nyepi day...but i guess it shuldnt be problem since we are there for over a week. sapa yg tak tau and bought a short travel period during that day musti rasa rugi giler.

me...me...me (part 2)

me meet
me boss at corridor
me boss ask
me know or not abt the promotion
me sengih kerang busuk
me bos said
me big boss want to suggest to JayPeeAee to hold the promotion
me big boss said once
me ministry got the re-org waran then..
me and fwens can get internal promotion but
me boss said dont want to force me
me boss give options
me stay or
me go
me sengih kerang busuk again
me said
me dunno
me didnt get to see the letter yet
me boss said
me letter is wif
me big boss and now
me and fwens already decided that
me and fwens want to stay
me hope
me wont change
me mind

kalau menjadi ler me and fwens decided to let go the offer, kire dlm sejarah la kat opis ni org request nak stay. selalu nyer semua org tergedik2 nak keluar. tp dgr citer nyer, ader senior yg giant itu yg dah keluor tetiba mcm request nak masuk balik...and ade sorg senior tuh bila dah tukor ministry, baru la appreciate ministry ini. sesuatuh taww opis ni. sebenarnyer hari ni sangat la tidak senang duduk. surat tak dpt tengok lagi....report duty kononnyer 3 april..selasa depan dah mula nak cuti fanjeng

amaran keras: jgncubaadasesiapayangcubameracunipemikirankuini

me....me....me

me like me like
me got the long awaited letter
me got transfered here
me so happy coz me can get out frm here but actually
me already comfortable here, its just that
me penat already working with numbers
me penat already working with dup dap dup dap feeling
me confuse already
me friends tell bad things abt that place
me dunno
me like here
me like parking system here
me like me room
me like me desk
me like bossess here
me actually like working wif number
me hate karang ayat berjela2 in bm
me seldom write minutes here and thats why
me like working wif numbers
me like microsoft excel
me like everything but
me bored already
me dunno..but if
me go there, it can be worse
me dunt want to get 60 - 70 assessment mark
me think me want to let go the offer
me stupid ker?
me crazy ker?
me silly ker?
me dunno...but then
me need new environment
me want new scope of work but if
me accept the offer
me must report duty 1st monday in april and
me is goin for a long vacation trip on that day and
me will only be back the following day
me know
me can have the report duty date extend but do
me want to take the offer or not
me dunt want lahh
me crazy
me dunno
me scared if
me let go the offer
me promotion will be affected
HELP MEEE

erk....letter pun kena hold lagi

Selamat Pengantin Baru

pix 1 - 3: sessi mari belajar mekap di elianto dia suatu tengahhari

Dearest Izyani
Sometimes u are my fav little sista, but most of the time u are not...opss!!!. but whatever it is, i'm wishing u the very best of marriage life that u've been dreaming abt. pesanan ahkak, bila ahdik dah kawin dgn pegawai diplomat ni, mekap kena pandai dan yg penting sekali tudung tak leh kerepot. sila lah belajo ngan ahkak pah, ahkak lilie ngan ahkak jolie yerk. erkk ahkak sab??? erkk...jap pikir jap...erk tak leh pikir. kalau nak belajo mekap belajo ngan ahkak zet ngan ahkak azie. hah tgk ahkak azie tuh dah ekselen dah pakai tudung cap ikan bawal. sekian. pantun ini direka khas utk ahdik:

pi kenduri cheeky naik keter
bila majuk patah balik naik bas
ahdik yani jgn terluper
pakai tudung kena vassss

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dear evil,
one simple question - so who is the genius now? me or u??

My so called vacation...

My visit to KK was a last minute frenzy..it was 5.25pm Friday and boss asked me whether I'm going to KK or not...Need to get 6 cust to signed up for the CIO event for me to earn the ticket flight. I didn't know that all my cust wanted to go since earlier of the week, only 2 signed up..as usual, boss freaked out and yelling why he wasn't notified earlier to give me permission to go to KK..frankly speaking, i dun want to go since it was my birthday..away from my wifey..quarter closing and such...and everybody kept saying how lucky am i to go...its not a vacation damn it..i have to make sure all my customer are in ok condition..happy and satisfied with our services..crap..that's doesn't sounds right..but they expect to bring more projects during this event..how i wish all my cust would just jot down their project plan this yr and the budget they have...or even better..just issue the freaking PO
So, within 5 minutes..i called my other boss for approval..sent an email to the marketing dept for the green light...called MAS to check available flight...called Amex to book a ticket..picked up the ticket on saturday in KL and was in KK at 6pm Monday...that's why i luv working here...you dun dwell on things..meeting after meeting...just fu*king execution..wing it!! But i hate the rest of things here...
For the 1st time for a very long time..i was enjoying Sunday again..after knowing my whole team will be away..meaning no sales review meeting on monday..yeahooo...but i spoke too soon...we had the review on tuesday evening in the hotel rooms...and as usual...got wallop by boss..ouch!!
I was a last minute entry for this event..there was no available rooms for me...and since boss was sleeping alone..he offered me to bunk into his room..WTF...why me?? I was begging my marketing team to get me a room..any room...i'd rather sleep on the beach then with him..its gonna be pretty awkward..He promised not to do any Brokeback Mountain actions...heheehe..I'm not laughing......this is not funny...
That night..after picking my cust at the airport..i went straight to boss's room...walking slowly thru the aisle..looking at the room no...my mind processing tonnes of info..what to do..should i go to sleep straight away..do i pretend to work and look hardworking..do i sleep on the floor...which btw..it's a queen bed..not even singles..ferkkkkkkkk

to be continued...

my birthday boy....

dearest munchkin evil the genius

wishing u a very HAPPY 2* BIRTHDAY. hope u have a *FUN* birthday celebration over there. ur darling cheeky wife really cant wait to see u tonite.



but let say u sampai erl around 10.30...u amik cab erk...or maybe u wait after 11...i nak tgk mya zara...saat2 genting ni...hik hik hik

shop till u drop..

the purpose of goin to suebang pared yesterday was just to get me a nametag and a pair of glasses. but this is what we got...

2 pairs of SCS blouse for her
1 pair of SCS pant for her
1 damn cheap cuffling shirt for him
1 very nice country style key hanger frm the flea market
and nametag

ayork...and i'm goin there again...sooonnn. parkson is closing for some major renovation so there is this big sale goin on...and i tell u....very big one. dont go to klcc....we went there on saturday and not much thing left...banyak dah kosong.

mr evil is now in KK until wednesday...miss u oledi...tp takper dpt melenjan wif ur car. esok ader miting kat PBD...ingat nak pi melenjan kat OU ke MV ker...hak hak hak. i miss u dear......