Failure

If one go to google and typed failure then clicked on I'm feeling lucky..one will be presented with the bio of some hobo in the US acting like a moron....
But here, in the good ol Malaysia..I've failed my certification exam...and i missed it with one more freaking correct answer!!!Arghhh..it was frustating and practically waste of money..RM 285 to be exact...Damn it..Have to take another exam next month or my performance evaluation gonna be a bit ugly...

Come to think of it, this was the 2nd time in my life..i've ever failed in exam papers..the 1st one was in MMU..final yr...1st sem...Econometrics. That was an unbelievably big mistake...I didn't attend the class coz i thought it was so damn easy....it's exactly like Statistics in A-Level days...so i thought...screw the classes..i'm better off playing counter-strike than calculating the index yr of China GDP or watsoever. So, when i took the exam...i was blinking for a couple of seconds and unable to comprehend WTF are these questions all about..Ferkkkkkkkkkk...I used to sailed maths related exams....piece of cake..but that was a wake up call for me...Not to be fuc*in arrogant anymore..especially in Maths...

Talking about arrogance in maths...there was time during my A-level days..Pn Shima, our Add Math teacher was talking bout algebra to the class and the whole boys were not paying attention at all..the girls was a bit intimidated coz we boys are so good in Add Math during the SPM days...so...this is another walk in the park..we were like chatting...playing pranks in front of Pn Shima...the girls can't concentrate and a tiny bit upset..and then..Pn Shima freaked out..suddenly burst in anger and shocked the whole class...like an 8.5 Richter scale earthquake...and she just grabbed her stuff and walked out of the class....Whoaaaa..it took us quite a surprise as we never experience that before..I use to get scolded or canned or stand up on the table etc..but this was new..Pn Shima practically gave up on us...ferkkkkkk....
Then the battle betw boys and girls erupted in the class..both parties blaming each other..your stupid..no..you asshole...well..you know the drill... It prolonged to several weeks and month i guess...where the boys and girls didn't talked to each other..it was quite funny though..as we were like adult but acting like school children...
But in the end..we called it a truce...peace finally set down in the class...no more flaming..blaming..tolerance were uphold...The boys went to Pn Shima's room, and apologize to her..she said " Forgiven but not forgotten" ...we were like "huh"...

Anyway, that was like almost 10 yrs ago...most of us have grown up..be more mature..able to think rationally..to weigh the difference betw good and bad...and maybe some forgotten bout it already...and i can't solve a simple SPM Add Math questions anymore..rusty and tak berkat kot!
I guess, i did failed to be a good person...an understanding and well rounded human being..with responsibility to my friends and family...

"Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could; some blunders and absurdities have crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; you shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense. -Ralph Waldo Emerson"